... thing's are shaping up to be pretty odd.

I don't know what's going on...
Idk.

I can't really explain it. It's like.. I can be as happy as ever and can be looking forward to anything and everything..

then out of nowhere I get the most depressing feeling in the world. I realize that what I look forward to isn't as great as I thought it was to begin with

that it's pointless.
No point of even looking forward to it
or anything
or life anymore.

I HATE that feeling.. and it does happen a lot.
Idk. Thought it'd be a good thing to jot this down.

Don't bother trying to explain.

I want to be with my friends, every day. I want to give back the the music more then I do. I want to feel like I'm doing something with my life.. or that I'm getting somewhere. I want to learn how to play guitar.. I wanna join a band.

One thing I hate the most is wasting my life, and knowing I'm doing so... and not doing anything to fix it.

Thing's are getting better. I'm trying not to take life so seriously.
Who says that makes you any happier? It doesn't.. trust me.